october 1st
just got home from the studio, ive got good images to show you but i think ill scan and dick with them at work tomorrow. zach michels, of test type trio (who ive prolly made any number of you listen to) emailed me. that is truly odd. oh fuck it, im uploading them tonight. this is not jennifer, it is a retarded kink machine. tell me you love me. this is not james. it is just suspiciously posed as a james action figure, with old-style james hair, but it is not james

september 226th-30th
things happened. went to stephs from fri-mon blah, other stuff happened. tonight's art notes. and a drawing on a proof. foot ball game last friday, met steph's teacher friend pam, went to her parents after foot ball game party. slept through a lot of it. leah took me out to lunch today. found out that the groomsman-lady from that wedding we went to is a livejournal'er (and she's not even in highschool *gasp*) so far ive been diarlylanded, blogspotted
, bloggered, live journaled and enetationed. ok i did somethign that should drive down the stats a lot. no more mr gamepavilion/netpavilion/webpavilion hits. then ill add grouping, and then ill start ignoring certain masks (and make it stick) so that ill get super accurate stats.

september 25th
bleh. spent like 0hr's at work today total. driving around and taking lunch etc. i wanst at the office for more than an hour or so at a time. it was kinda cool. this is my new plate btw. more content than meets the eye. btw, product is the excrement of action

september 24th
here we are at school again. just doing more stuff. "crit" (kinda)(sorta)(not really) is on thursday~ here it is. the entire top line. ugh. CC was de=clined for a freakin coffee, forgot i bought firewire stuff for work and didnt remember to get expense report filed. :/

september 23rd
today, i may as well have stayed in bed. nothign productive happpened. i dont have any images for you. nothing. i ruined this plate. ended up cuttin it in half. i goruned up a new, smaller one and im goign to just attack it as if it was paper. fuck :(

september 22nd
its my birthday. got woken up in a good way, steph and i went downtown, she surprised me with that graffiti book i was talkign about awhile back. went to negri's and had dinner with shawn and sil and steph. it was pretty cool but it wasnt as good as it used to be or something. later on we went for coffee's, then steph went home and shawn came over and we played video games. we didnt theorize about art, or talk about quality we just sat and played video games and laughed. and had fun. laughed and had fun. it was completely frivolous but i betcha i remember having fun a lot longer then ill remember some stupid fucking discussion about subjectiveness

september 21st
had a nice dinner with family, spent a good part of the day reading. opened presents a day early (rawk) got a bunch of cool stuff.

september 20th
Dear diary,
steph went to the girl doctor today. she doenst get worked up about it like some girls do. nor does she dwell on it. she called my cell and i, like normal, didnt answer (its on perma-vibrate) so she leaves this message and she's talking in a low quiet voice. and im not quite getting what she's saying but i know that today is the Girl Doctor Day. so low serious voice + girl dr day has me thinking that she's preggo. i may be youngish and stupid but the boys swim, confirmed. so the reason i bring it up is this. (and shawn and i have talked about this.) but you dear diary are my constant friend. she's talking low. she's talking serious and im thinking ohmigod she's about to tell me she's preggo. or something along those lines. its the first thing i think. so im struggling to listen to this message that i can barely understand. all the while the brain is reeling. but none of them were bad thoughts. first was lining up months, "yes that would be after graduation, working full time, ok money is fine what stands in the way ok nothing". "ring". "yeah so nothing but ring." then it turns out the message is just about her stupid broken ass ford car. so its a little mini drama. where my brain jumped to this fantastical conclusion. i dont know where i was going with this. i definitely know where i am going with steph...

september 19th
lets get the new drawings out of the way first. number 1 is notes from my first arthisotry class. the entire top line is new save for the last one. and last but not least, the sockman.

september 18th
there is an "xml virus" going around. it might possibly be some marketing thing. like how fast does news spread when it isnt deliberately spread. in all actuality that is precisely what this is about. however, i dont use a blogging system. other than my keyboard, and some html slapped down. i cant support linkbacks, rss... i dont do css or xml. im pure 1996 right here. and lookit! youre getting the same info. if i switched to movable type would anyone even comment? this whole blog thing i started several years (actually, april 2001 -ed) ago cause i had noone to talk to. my friend had just gotten engaged. that was it.ive dropped off linking to the blog everywhere on my site except my 404 page and cover page. ive always tried to put my gallery forward. and now im thinking about just dropping this blog, keeping it a secretfilename or whatever. so youll only find it when robots.txt doesnt exist. either that or im goign to reg a new domain name and just virtual direcotry it to my gallery directory on the server. this is badass btw, they owed my dad $65~ total unclaimed money, just enter your name. i stopped by easy street today. they had a sign in their window that said artist wanted. so i went in thinking they wanted an artist. but they wanted a tattoo artist. like someone to lay the ink down. i thought they meant someone to contract out custom drawing work. but they do buy flash. so im goign to start making 11x17 sheets. see if i cant sell. or trade. thatd be rockin. trade flash for piercing or tattoo time. man im gonna cry. hi x. hi erin. hi nat. hi kurt. hi david. hi brett. hi nick. hi anyone who wandered by and saw the url then copied it down and came here at a later point. hi shawn. ive started telling people about my site. i think im goign to get cards printed up. just my name, my website and thats it. slogan = "you think it, ill mimic it" or "mimicry at its finest" "look at the goddamned gallery before i go clockwork orange on you with the forced viewings and whatnot" also, comment.

september 17th
what a whirlwind day. i may or may not have caused anger again. shawn called me out. called my no-comic-making bluff. got a lot of work done it felt like. and i opened a new chapter. i have some pics for you to see. this is my new studio at school. this is the 2nd state or so of that drawing im working on. this is a weird little line drawing that i dont recognize as my own. just a little something and here is the latest state of that plate ive been working on for 2yrs now. 2yrs, thats a fuck of a long time. i have all the states pretty much too, i should scan them all one day. its kinda surprising where this plate has been. here is the plate a little while back (sorry the only scan i have of it right now) i got a letter from mssr. "x" today. not sure how to take it. its a quarter of midnight right now, i have forgone dinner for uploading. and im not about to process his letter at the moment. im listening to the misfits, and i drew my first comic since 10th grade... and its horrible. i like to draw and i like to show off, thats my artists' statement

september 16th
i got this email (link includes my response to said email) the other day, i can only assume this guy saw my drawings section linked from explodingdog (thats where i get most of my hits) i was kinda scared at first cause it is a great indication of the frivolity of an 18yr old. i was prolly at the same place this guy is now. i dont know. its just scary and it scared me. mebbe ive got him pegged all wrong. can you imagine what a holocaust would be like? can you imagine what a *nuclear* holocaust would be like? firsthand. now, can you think of any piece of ar/work/piece/collection/portfolio that would impact you more? i got called glib once. it kinda stung. but i was being completely honest and got called for it. the lesson i learned was be mindful of others and their meager feelings. dont tell the truth, always sugarcoat everything. im trying not to be an asshole lately honest. Nat says i need to stop telling everyone my opinions. shes right. but i think what she means is stop telling everyone what they dont want to hear. perhaps im putting words in her mouth. oh and i just got a haircut.

september 15th
whew, the wedding was a blast, but very short. the ceremony started @ 5pm, and the reception was all wrapped up by 9pm, we ended up going to the echo bar for an after party it was rockin. had a few drinks, sam ordered a bunch of pizza, and dan said he was gonna buy, but i think he got shutdown by his wife. we all chipped in and got to grub on pizza @ midnight or so. the after bar party thing was almost cooler than the reception cause there wasnt any of that dancing stuff getting in the way, and it was nice anfd friendly y'know? i just met these people who mean a lot to steph and they are all really cool. here's pics from the wedding. im no photographer though.

september 14th
the wedding is today, bears visited us last night and trashed the outside lighting, also the garbage was strewn everywhere. went to the rubicon deli again today, they had bluecheese bread. it was good stuff, im starting to get my appetite back.

september 13th
feeling less liek shit today, had to goto stephs pick her up then goto tahoe. work was pretty long and sucky. on the drive to stephs house i got sicker and shittier feeling, but i was in the sun alot so that coulda had a lot to do with it. we got up there in ok time and went to bed super early after lazing about for awhile. set up online paying thingy for my CC today. it was super cool, for such a ghetto card issuer.


september 12th
today was good and bad. the bad is almost passed out twice. the good is i think im cool with everyone at school now. and i got a fuck of a lot of drawing done. here, here, here, here and here.

september 11th
what a waste of a day. i hope noone tried to do anything that big media didnt allow. like uhm, getting on with it. i think stalin said it best when he said "alright already, get the fuck on with your lives, the patriotic bandwagon just left heresville."

september 10th
alright, i put my portfolio together. a lot of it is what the staff has already seen, but i didnt wnat to be including a bunch of sketchbook items this time so they get repeats. im including a slipsheet of sorts with my website address on them so if they want to make an effor tthey can see the entire deal. the point of a portfolio is to select yoru best works and bring them forth. however im challenging a class. i dont care abotu best works as it applies to my career. i care about best works as it appplies to me getting those 3 units so i can graduate. if i fail this class challenge im going to have to take 1.5units at ssu. thats $340 thats lame. id prolly end up doing them at the JC. god. it makes me sick just to think about it. im always telling shawn not to worry too much but i do it all the time :( sorry i havent scanned any drawings in the past few days. im waiting until we get a computer in the studio so i can really open up and start producing. its bitch ass hard to not mangle drawings when carrying them back and forth to school just to scan.

september 9th
worked, got somethign accomplished. it was a good feeling. too much lately i feel as if i have been spinning my wheels. its nice to be able to lay down at night and know that there is somethign real that i accomplished. when i get done drawing i have a drawing. its not really worth the time i put into it, and all i have is a piece of paper with some marks on it. but when i get done building computers i have somethign. its a real somethign that can do things. ROI for building 3 computers in a day and fixing 2: a lot, ROI for fiddling about with several drawings:? not much. printed 3 proofs, press wasnt set right (ive been cranking down a little bit more than normal) so eveyrthign came out crappy. grounded up several of my new big plates. portfolio review tomorrow. its kinda lame, but all my pictures are here. some dont even exist anymore anywhere other than here. some of them are on such shitty paper, and are small, but i can pshop them and you never know. the image is all that remains, not the papaer texture, or size etc. this zithromax + sinus infection isk illing me. i feel like when i had mono in 3rd grade. i was skating to class yesterday and i saw this girl. i recognized her, so i smiled and waved and she said hello how are you. i skated by and answered. she was my 6th grade girlfriend. it may have been 5th grade too, im not sure. she was my elementary school gf. and i recognized her, isnt that weird? she recognized me too. i had good taste even in the grade 6. she was hot ;)

september 8th
woke up early for us, ate, showered showed my mom how to work the new dvd player they got. then we headed down to berkeley to amsterdam art. picked up a bunch of shit i was lacking and got some nice large sheets of bristol to work on. stupid sinus dealy has been making me really tired. also got irridescent acrylic white, some brushes and scarlet red rapido ink. picked up a new bottle of my trusty higgings too. i need to find a way to get a whole lotta crow quills for cheap. it used tobe id just steal a box from HS. but we arent there any more are we?

september 7th
slept in for fucking ever, which is our normal practice. steph needed to get art supplies for the art classes that she teaches. first we started out talking about amsterdam art in berkeley, which eventually dwindled down to lunch in occidental, art supplies at montemarte in sebastopol. montmarte was fairly stripped as far as supplies go. :/ lunch was good though, went to the west pole cafe. went to go ring shopping/looking but we got too late of a start and the stores had closed.

september 6th
work. work fucking sucked today. everybody has these days so i wont feel the need to fill you in. just imagine your worst day at what you do, then pretend like its fixing computers and youll have my day. got in ot the doctors today, apparently ive had a sinus infection, my first. my parents used to get sinus infections so bad that they eventually ahd to have surgery. steph came over we wanted to do something so we went to hang out with shawn and sil at the old vic. there were bands playing and one of them, the rum diary was pretty good. bought a cd and got a 7". i threw away my record player a while back though so now ill have to scrounge one up.

september 5th
spent most of the day drawing at school. didnt bring anythign home to scan. but i will. started on another one of aaron debeer's plates. putting a giant squid thing on top of this stupid poorly drawn farm thing. i burnt down his image and it was mostly aquatint so this should be a nice juxtaposition. signed up for print monitor duty for thursdays. shawn and i were (once again) the only folks left in the dept after hours. the print studio was a mess, so i cleaned it all up. may as well get a unit of credit for it right?

september 4th
went to work today yay work. i hate digitizers. GTCO CALCOMP BLEH. i think i have an addiciton. i took some pants back today that were too large, then bought another ps2 game. im up to 1 a day ;) its cool though, found a used game store. well refound.

september 3rd
first real day of school. got a plate drawn and burnt and printed. Printed up another plate that i hadn't cooked yet. i got a studio space its not the best but it beats working in the printshop. david is gonna let me do what i want to do which is great. hopefully kurt jumps on that too. then mebbe i can finally get my comic done.

september 2nd
so im late to the game with all this video game hoopla. that means there are a butt load of sony bestsellers out. which are all $20. yay for me.

september 1st
went to the city today, had lunch at maxes, went to the moma got a component video cable for my ps2 oh. heh. i got a ps2! last ngiht i said fuck it, and wen to circuit city when they were closing, grabbed a ps2, thps3 and a mem card. i had a $50 gift certificate so it only ran me $209. then this morning i woke up and thps3 was $10 cheaper and compusa was giving away a generic controller with theirs. so i bundled my shit all back up and went to c.city and got $30 credit. which i dropped on ico. so im stoked. its been nasty hot here. we came back into town and it was still 83f at 9pm or so. my dad bought a 5 dvd dvd player. its pretty bad ass. so the parents enter the late 90's. i went to a party over at kevin's house, but it was more of a everybody-recovering-from-last-night kinda slouch-fest. talked to chris and kevin and janay for awhile though.

august 30th
well looky-doo. here we go. here's some notes for you. those notes are for this plate it was meant to be a show off and show up everyone else plate. but shawn dropped the ball. worked till 6 tonight. still trying to catch up from my vacay. steph is gonna be here soon. which is good. we'll prolly end up goign down to the moma or somewheres tomorrow.

august 29th
first day of school. it went much better than i thought. tried to use my discover card today. discovered that id never used it. since i got it in july of 01. so i called and activated it. i think i might get dan's ps2./ and if not dan's then some ps2+games bundle off of ebay. id rather buy from dan though. i uploaded a shitpot full of drawings tonight. i doubt youve seen them before. shawn has.

august 28th
last day of freedom before school. i didnt do a god-damned thing.and then i got a massive headache for my troubles.

august 27th
i had myself a mini anxiety attack today. i left work to go take care of it. school stuff of course. it sucked but things are workign out. my new schedule is not as hectic now. i wont be getting my art history minor though. oh well no big loss, i can always pick it up with one seemsters worth of arth or whatnot. sean from ferndale came over last night and ended up staying the night he left not too long ago today. he's homeless and living from his truck. im trying to talk him into working down here. went drawing at shawns place tonight. did this tonight, and been working on this and this. that last one is more like the blotter that i work on over there. i guess at some point i should upload what my old blotter looked like.

august 26th
so im back at work :( the bad part of fixing things is that you have nothing to hold up. At best my accomplishments are just making things work like they are supposed to. Sometimes i can add better features but even then its fairly intangible... ooOOoo i decreased packet overhead, oOOOo i got someone's system to print a teensy bit faster. bleh. with drawing or apinting i have something i can hold up. granted, sometimes you hold up a print or drawing and say "damn i sure wasted a lot of time on that for nothing" and its useless, but its an accomplishment. Going drawing at shawn's tonight. Dan offered to sell me his new PS2 with 2 games and mem card for $250 but i think im gonna pass. i dont really need it. Tried to convince the other sean to move to SR so i could get a roomate last night. that'd be sweet. Found the scanner i want refurb'd for $30 less. Forgot to pay my Macy's bill before i went on vacay so now i got a $15 penalty fee, booo.

august 25th
so im home now, we spent a good part of the day cleaning up. drove home supa-quick. i finally got to scan. here's scanned version of the big page i was doodling on. And here's some character fiddling i was doing. Does anyone have any use for an RSS file? ive noticed 28 hits from a site that makes an RSS dloader/reader so i was wondering if people were trying to sync this site. If you do have a need for RSS i can figure it out or use MT and just have it autogenerate. BTW i need a better scanner. Shawn and I have been looking at the Epson Perfection 1650 but i think even that Platen might be too small. My scanner does a piss poor job scanning, but the platen cant even scan the new bristol board i got (what those previous 2 images are on) i bought that bristol specifically small so that i could scan easier than if i had larger bristol and it turns out the bristol is 9x12 and i needed 8.5x11.65 i totally thoguht i had grabbed a 8.5x11 pad, but i guess not. i got a birthday coming up. if i dont get that ill jsut buy it myself. partial list of high-tech whizbangery: MP3 headunit for car (aiwa or kenwood), 5gb or 10gb ipod, PS2, gold teeth, imported eskimo ottoman... and other such useless consumerables. I'd like to get mp3's into my car such as the old carputer was set up and i can do that with either ipod or MP3 head unit. I have put 14k miles on my car (new in jan/02) so being limited to 80mins of audio blows. the PS2 would prolly amuse me for like a week, but i wouldnt mind having one cause sometimes i just want to veg y'know? I guess scanner would be most practical. OOh i also want new speakers and a sub. i want i want i want. normally i dont give people gift ideas. but these are so outlandishly expensive they hit the unrealistic mark :) hi mom! I think im goign to start cleaning out progress I like showing progression, but i also like not using up a bunch of space needlessly on the server.

august 24th
went to the rubicon deli. It was awesome. Finally got to see vikingsholm, made the last tour of the day. Pretty rad house. We might go into Reno tonight but I haven't mapquested it up yet. Its a mile hike down a mountain and then a mile hike back up so we're kinda tired right now. It don't sound like much but it is :) just mapquested hereish to reno, fuck that. 3hrs . So though we finally made it to vikingsholm today, i left my camera in the car and it was too far to get back (we would have missed last tour) so go to the website or come up here.

august 23rd
Steph wasn't feeling so hot today, and we'd spent a lot of energy the day before hiking all over so we sat around for much of the day. Highlights of the day include going out for a newspaper and going out for sushi :) it was a good sushi house, "the naked fish" but kinda pricey... dinner for 2 was $80 with tip. Oh well, IM on vacay. We were going to try to goto the rubicon deli for lunch today but I didn't want to go if steph wasn't going to enjoy it. I guess we'll try again tomorrow. We are also going to try to goto the vikingsholm place again tomorrow

august 22nd
we met up with some of steph's friends. Dan and Laura, ill upload pics Monday prolly, IM tired right now and don't feel like it. Dan runs noip.com we hiked all day and canoed to a remote place from a remote place and hiked some more. im exhausted right now. And burnt. Rowed a canoe for a 1/2 mile :) Thai's today's workout. Took a bunch of really good pics. The cabin they are staying in is accessible by boat or long ass hike. No electricity and butane and solar run facilities. Pretty rad. Last night I had a dream that Kurt was yelling at me cause I missed the first day of school and therefore didn't have the first step of my candies made (it was a candy making class)it sucked I kept yelling at him that I didn't have my shit together and he kept yelling at me to get my shit together. Here's a stitched photo of echo lake (where their cabin was) I have 2 drawings to upload, im going to put them in progress, even though im getting a huge amount of hits in drawings once they are done ill move them into drawings. NUMBAH THE ONE NUMBAH THE TWO

august 21st
loving vacay 100% woke up whenever and tried to goto vikingsholm again. Parking blew, again. So we stayed on the 50 and went where it took us. That happened to be Carson city. Then Virginia city. Virginia city was cool and old but very touristy. Nevada in general (that I've seen) is super poor. everything is really shitty. Their state capitol is smaller than Santa Rosa We had talked about going in to Reno tonight. But im not driving into Nevada twice.

august 20th
today we went cruising around the lake, checking out diff stuff. saw a profile of a stream, since ive been drawing fishy things lately that was cool. checked out the wedding site of a wedding we are going to in sept. its at valhalla resort/mansion/hall near emerald bay. tried to goto vikingsholm but the parking was not happening. we went gambling later on in the night and had a buffet dinner at caesars. pissed away $20 over an hour or so on the slots. won some and lost some. it was fun. we decided we were old nad tired and left around 11p :) i had a pepsi blue. it tastes like unpsun cotton candy. steph said it tasted like glitter.

august 19th
today is the first true day of my vacay, picked steph up at the sacramento airport, that was painless, then we drove to the cabin we are staying at in tahoe. we stopped along the way and had lunch at ikedas in auburn, it wasnt as great as she hyped it up to be, but i was able to buy a whole strawberry rhubarb pie. it wasnt as good as my gramma's but my gramma's is really good. the cabin is awesome, ill upload later pics later. 3ish stories, jacuzzi on second story, satt. tv with a zillion worthless channels :) 128kbit ISDN etc etc etc. its rad.

august 18th
shawn and sil and i went down to the city to see the comic exhibit at the yuerba buena. pretty bad ass. now i know why i like drawing. or i guess i should say i remember. i still dont have the fluff to do my own comic. but im working on it.

august 17th
woke up... sick. bleh. went out to buy a knife today, looking at black kershaw boa's ended up buying steph this sweater she wanted instead. while i was in the knife store there was this really little kid there. and then he pulled out htis big ol model 710 benchmade. the owner said he's the only under 18 that's allowed not only in the store, but to buy knives. he had 2 or 3 on him at that point, all about the size of my large blade (7-8" open) anyway, rented the acid house. s'alright. if its representative of the scottish people, i can scratch scotland off of my travel itenerary.

august 13th-16th
bleh. not much has happened ive been pseudo sick. bleh bleh bleh. next week im in tahoe. lets hoope im better befor ethen.

august 12th
Vacay got approved today, now I can go to Tahoe for all of next week. I FINALLY FRICKIN BROKE MY RUT look!
went to Shawn's tonight to draw, cut out early and rented the lord of the rings yay dork rock. i'm going to roll the 23 sided dice and if I land on 13 I get to have a soda, but if I land on an even number a dark elf will eat me. Here is another drawing I did tonight. There was more to it but I pshopped the holy hell out of it. We had Mexican food at a little taqueria. The little kid working the counter was very indignant that he had to work there. And it is 'sil' not 'syl' oh portrait of my current 'studio' its not relaly mine and its not relaly a studio and its not really a portrait but eat a dick you fucking stickler and just look ok?

august 11th
Steph stayed up really late last night so we didnt wake up till 12. shawn and sil wanted to goto the city to the yuerba buena exhibit but we were too bushed, so we're going to go next sunday.

august 10th
Went to a wedding today, I wore my new suit, and was over dressed. Apparently I didn't get the invitation that said just wear a Hawaiian shirt with tennis shoes. Slobs. The wedding was so-so, but it had an excuse. The parents of the bride got into a fight with the bride and cut out all money and forbade anyone in the family from going. The bride's twin sister didn't even get to go. :/ That was kinda jacked. We had Japanese for lunch today too, tried a new place in Santa rosa. Can't remember the name of it though.

august 9th
after work steph and i went down to the city to meet lisa for dinner. we ended up at this trendy little sushi house, sushi-rock it was called. i was expecting a less than pleasant evening but it worked out ok.

august 8th
I think I was yelling in my sleep last night. My throat feels like I've been yelling a lot. But I haven't yelled about anything lately. No issues worth getting loud over. I couldn't possibly be getting sick. Of course not, see? Woke up at 9am, on my day off, this is an event folks. Took awhile to finally get out the door, but I had a nice morning. Went and picked up proof from the proofing place. It's finally looking good. Hopefully work decides to run the series. It's been $312 in proofs so far :/ I bought Shawn and I Bright Eyes concert tickets this morn. $15 each. Not bad. The show is at the great American music hall in SF. My card wouldn't go through for $85 worth of proofing paper at office depot and they wouldn't let me use the company account. Rat bastards. Anyway I was $20 over on my card. I went to my bank and Erin, my friendly neighborhood banker helper lady, helped me out. Since I caught it before it posted, no late charge for moi. I signed up for online banking too so I can just keep my register via interwebbernet. Took pictures of Shawn's driveway. Look at these. I had something good to say. All this daily clutter got in the way. Shit. I remembered whatever it was sometime during the day. It was one word. Now I've gone and forgotten again. Registered for classes today too. 2 studio art, 2 art history. I'm getting a major in uselessness and a minor in applied ineffectualism. YAY. A check is in the mail for me. Some work i did the other day came out good. I get paid. Ousted 2 huge speaker boxes from my room. While im thinking about it, I'm going to scan a drawing. School is coming up. In some ways I'm happy, in others, not so happy. I'll be working 3 days a week, starting @ 7am :( friday's I'll have to work from 7am -5pm (10hrs). Wedding this saturday, And Steph found out that we are goign to another wedding on Sept 14th. That one is in tahoe. I was talkign to Shawn about this today. all of Steph's friends (who are older than us by a coupla years) have hit their marriage point. I've been to more weddings in the past year than in all my life. ok drawings have been scanned one two three four five

august 7th
I'll give a nickel to you. worky work work. set up a dead man's switch of sorts. no one else knew root pword of server at work. This was bothering me yesterday as I was backing up my own personal data, so I worked out an arrangement with a friend, and set it up with work so that if something happens he gets to su to root and a special document with all the user/pwords etc. So I completely changed the gallery layout pretty much. I want you fuckers to comment on stuff in progress. except Shawn. All you other fuckers though, you're to be commenting. Is the gallery to hard to figure out? should I put in something simpler? did you like the old gallery better?

august 6th
bleh. Woke up really very late. Had too much caffeine yesterday. Took clothes to the cleaners, did a little pshop work, cleaned up my hdd's. Burnt some archives, rented 2 movies. The time machine and the others. The time machine is not so good. Barely worth renting let alone buying. I cleaned up my room. And hard drive. Clean hard drive. Mmmm 120gb's of crap I only had like 11gb free. I'm thinking of ousting my vast weird video/pr0n collection

august 5th
started a new book yesterday about royal scandal, a quick light read. Went to Shawn and Sil's for dinner and drawing night. Then a bunch of people came over. So Sil cooked this really good meal, but she didn't even get to eat it. But then she got to pick through leftovers later on. It was a shame. :( Anyway so we drew and drew. Ill scan tomorrow. Got the laptop parts I ordered, put them in and bam, different power connector. My first experience with ebay and it goes hinky. Shame shame.

august 4th
went over to dixon for grad party today. the only couple there with out babies. someone commented that it looked liek a maternity ward there. the smallest baby was 6lbs, 2wks old. looked liek a little monkey. this one 2month old kept staring at me, it was pretty cute i guess. heh, the other night i was reading in the living room and steph got up to check on me, when she went back to bed she locke dhte bedroom door behind her i had to walk aorund the house outside @ 2:30a through the downed plums to open my window form the outside and wake her ass up i was knocking and clling her name nbut she was fast asleep i had to pry the screen off my window then i flickered the flashlight in her eyes and called her name. that woke her up then she thought i menat the front door of the house, finally she figgered it out. she was dead ass asleep by the time i got back in the house too

august 3th
woke up extremely late. steph ahd woken up hours previous. i tricked her into going back to bed so we didnt get up till 1 or 2 or so, had dinner with the folks, then went with the folks to go see my big fat greek wedding. i didnt laugh as much as other people. i cant believe how much the rialto costs, $8.50 per ticket. unbelievable. they dont even have any modern features that you find at other theatres. the only attraction they do have is the indy films.

august 2rd
steph came over, we went tot he fiar and ate a food for every finger except one. it was fun, nothing like the previous years at the fair. after tha twe went and saw the latest austin powers movie. got done with that and noticed a message from shawn, so we ended up goign to a pub later after the movie. finally settled on a proof, printing up a large proof just cause it needs to be large to be seen (ive been doing iterations of 5"x5" squares for color spot tests. donut day at work. steph and i are going to the fair tonight. viva la mexico. sigh. last time i went we were the minority. the carnybarkers were even barking in spanish. leah tells me i shold make sure and put on my white trash gear. cause its an even mix this year. oh well. we're going to eat all the food. wow i just checked mylogs, in the first 2 days of august ive had double the hits that i had for the entire month of july. did someone link to me? all i can see for referrals is some by textbased.com. also some user from sympatico.ca got 6% of access. so possibly someone just raped down all my images. :/ if you did dude, gimme credit all that shit is copyright.

august 1st
steph came over last night. she started doing homework for her teacher credential class from teh moment she got here. then we woke up (her earlier than i) and she went right back to it. then we got lunch, then she did it more. i got a new burner, a sony 40x/12x/48x for cheap, she got a 24x10x40x mine can be o/c'd to 48x! yay. im upgrading from a 8x. i just removed some people form my aim contact list. people i used to talk to all the time.its like exicising a friend. picked up new proof from printers and bought a bunch of good cds.

july 31st
you clik here now. hi. i orderd a mobo for my old fujitsu laptop, im fixing it up for steph. i burnt myself real bad soldering on it the other night, but its still fucky so i found a mobo for $50 and im gonna drop that in

july 26th-30th
steph was in orgegon so i had a boring ass weekend. got into warcraft 3, hung out with shawn etc. went to a book signing of that chuck pahaliniuk guy. bookstore worker thought shawn and i were stealing. talked to michael from section m abotu getting a comic in the paper. now i jsut need a comci. ive been drawing on it since last saturday (its tuesday now) and im in a block. was super in a rut yesterday (the 29th) moepy and what not. showed adam how to run his server the other day, ordered a sony 32x/12x/48x burner for me and a 24x/10x/40x for steph. they're really cheap right now. like $50-60... so, heres some feeble attempts at frames. that first page of no-detail bad drawing is me being very frustrated. i tore all the shit off my walls. it used to be pretty chaotic more or less. now its just blank. well as blank as i could get it. almost got pierced yesterday. just deposited my money instead. was debaitng between nipples and collarbone piercings. figured it was like the PS2. friday i spent 1.5hrs looking at ps2 stuff trying to decide whether to buy one or not. i figured since i wasnt really impressed with any of the games, and since i was so indecisive id may as well just save my money, rent or ring y'know.

july 25th
ive never introduced myself as "eric with a c" when people have to write it down they ask. like when people with names that can be spelled in different forms introduce themselves as a certain form. i dont do that. i also have never introduced myself as an artist or art student. im always "network administrator o a small company in petaluma" never "part time computer guy and artist" its like im ashamed of being an artist i guess. if it came down to it im prolly better at drawing than i am with the computers. dont know for certain or how that would be measured, maybe the next time i introduce myself ill say im an artist. or a doodler or a printmaker or a painter. went to dinner at li's last night. got caught up with her. steph and i are going out tot visit with li and judah within the year. we're also goign to hop over to NY to see brookity. today im going over to stephs a bit later.

july 24th
drove to jobsites. yay $45 in mileage. going to resume rushdie today. shawn's ditching his gallery. im thinking of switching back to old "gallery" system. what choo think? today along the 101 i was driving and i saw a CHP merge on. and i passed the CHP as these things happen and he had 2 signs in the windows tha tsaid out of service. the dude driving it looked straight out of deliverance. like if an okie slept with santa and they had a baby. bright yeller tshirt stretched over his man-tits, bib-alls and a giant zztop beard. i bet he was mad he couldnt pick his banjo AND drive at the same time. whores. misogeny is AOK. my first comic will be over hyped. no my first comic is making me not want to do it cause im afraid that this is the wrong place for it.

july 23rd
so right after i woke up i went online lookign for scanner streaky problems. the streakign is cause by dust/oil and dark shadow areas. so i thin i ve got it fixed. i can put off buying a scanner for now. here is what ive been workign on for awhile. kinda sad really this is what i was workign on last night at shawns clubhouse. "the clubhouse" i finished fight club and choke today. they are like dueling books. im not going to even begin a discussion till shawn's read them both though.

july 22nd
got proof back from new printhouse, too purpley. theyve got a solution though so good. bought 2 books today, House Of Leaves and Choke. started fight club last night. ill be done with it soon. still cant get into my rushdie book. went drawing at shawn's i think im going to go look at scanners tommmorry. mines all jacked. ive drawings to upload, but since they are effemoral in nature and preservation i need to make sure that first scan is for keepsies. hi. talked to saara today. i still owe her 700mb's of emo and she got a vetrenarian type job.

july 21st
we woke up in typical sunday fashion, late. or i gues si woke up late, steph always wakes up early. the member of my family that i am not allowed to mention was home. shes goign to ferndale to see grandma soon i guess. steph and i went downtown to look at the bookstores and magazines etc, then picked up some pizza and went over to shawn and sil's house. that was pleasant, after we ate we went for a walk downtown and shawn opened up wolf so we could get some coffee. after that we headed back over to the bookstore and hung out there for awhile. shawn and i are both hard up for mac's. steph had to go back to vtown so we left shawnand sils early. im sore today. crouching down and standing up and walking and taking stairs is hurty.

july 20th
woke up really early and went paintballing with chris and other gp d00ds. at first we thoguht our dude that was hooking us up with guns and stuff flaked, but then we figgered out who he was and were rockin... chris wants to get a gun so we can go more often, but he only got to play 3 or 4 rounds before his body got all fucked up so dunno how smart an investment in that stuff would be... its pretty expensive. i only spent $55 for the whole day though, $20 for reg $20 for 1k rounds and $15 for gun rental. i had a bad ass gun, better than what the other guys had cause it was the personal fave of the dude lending them out. i got hit first int eh eye. dead ass center in the eye. themask absorbed the blow so it didnt hurt. all in all i got hit 3 times int eh head and twice in teh torso and 3 or 4 rounds i didnt get hit at all. i cant confirm that i got anyone but i had a hell of a lot of fun. real tired though now. went to a party at the humboldt hotel. it was so-so. as in meh. the old-school days of hotel parties were so rad. but now that josh doesnt live upstairs they kinda just blow. oh well. at least i can sleep in tommorry

july 19th
without referring to anyone SPECIFIC someone i know who is a republican does not agree with TIPS. here.

and this is my sister:
"hey how bout fuck you asshole? don't put my name on your fucking stupid ass diary webpage. you don't know anything about what i think about TIPS and even if you did you probably wouldnt listen to anything i had to say anyways. who says i blindly follow the president? i do have an opinion of my own. im not making fun of you for being some fucked up lunatic worrying about some fucking conspiracy and how will i pee in the street then!!! go back to your fucking psychiatrist and stop being such an asshole to me. "

so , first off, hey dumbshit i put your name on my stupid ass diary webpage on the 11th of may. did you not notice your name absent from yesterdays post? did you even read it? so lets hear what you think about TIPS instead of personally attacking me. youll also notice i didnt personally attack you yesterday. IN FACT OPEN YOUR FUCKING EYES AND REALIZE THAT ONLY ONE GOD DAMNED SUBSET HAS A FUCKING THING TO DO WITH YOU. GODDAMN KNEEJERK. eat shit and die. tell me what you think about tips.

july 18th
are you familiar with the phrase "if youre not outraged, youre not paying attention" ? how familiar have you made yourself with TIPS? how familiar are you with USPS. how do you like your president now? i feel like im some conspiracy theorist. except the theory is wide out in the open. we have secret governements, secret closed trials and now there is a program in effect, a national program at that that will database insinuations of terrorism. does this not outrage you? i feel like screaming? have we really turned over the last of our freedoms? lets say you owe me money. or youre gay, or youre a foreignor. hell lets just say that you, joe q public are an african american. now lets say me, joe q betteramerican is white. lets say i dont cotton to yer kind no more. whats to stop me from just dropping a dime on your ass and starting the terrorist query? this is god damned frightening! they are allowed to do searches without warrants now. i can hear my sister, republican defiance fiery, saying; "if youre not doing anythign wrong you dont have anythign to worry about" but that is so false. how about a difference of opinion? lets say im sick of hearing her unwavering republican banter, zealotry. her BLINDLY following this false president? why dont i just turn her in as a terrorist? a national database people. will that compliment the proposed national id system? god i want to cry over this. like a single voice. just fucking wailing. how do you even go about protesting these days? will i get mcarthied now too? enough of that rant.but fuck labeling it a rant. enough of that concern. i have somethign else to talk about.
Dreams. my for awhile has been to pee. im getting close to that. let me start over. my dream for a long while has been to pee in the middle of the street in broad daylight with a lack of concern for whatever and whomever. just ot be able to do so without even batting an eye or worrying about it. so thats my dream. now what if i end up to be some fuckign bum? what if my fucking pithy little dream turns into this nightmarish reality where i piss in the street. piss in the fucking gutter becuase i have NO where else to piss? isnt that alarming? my current dream might be my destiny. even more alarming is that my current dream is someone elses destiny at this very moment. someone is pissing in the middle of the street right now somewhere becuase they dont have a fuckign bathroom or a means to get one. and for them its not about liberation or getting over some fucking incident in a aymca fucking decades ago, its about survival and existentialism living your life. i discovered today that im wavering between agnosticism and atheism. that is a step back from atheism. with the apocolyptic end day-ass shit happening lately wavering seemed liek a smart move. i read an article today about FUCKING LOCUSTS a plague of locusts and these farmers dont know what to do cause locusts havent happened since hte 50s. floods famines locusts raging out of control fires and martyrs. national id = mark of the beast. fuck im one step away from talking about earthquake sattelites. but i feel like im not passivly plodding along


july 17th
went over to shawn's new house. its pretty cool. envious is me. its small, cosy kinnd of sweet. it has a one car locking garage as well, which shawn is converting to a studio, and silvanie might be putting a dark room in there too. I edited the log to reflect that **KARA** was in town. for those of you who dont know her, kara is the person who helped me find out what i did and did not want for myself. **KARA** is good people. candy tweenbot! candy! >(|@|)< i heart you tweenbot. better now? D Y! D Y!!1

july 16th
did i mention shawn got a new place? he did. a 1 br house over off of SR ave. he moved in with his gf. adam also got a house, did i mention that? im the last one at home. rememebr r. crumb's brother in teh documentary "crumb"? thats me. /me yells to mom off camera. anyway today was pretty great. got my cell phone all changed around so i got more for same money. i got golden sun yesterday. and a handful of candy. but the candy made me sick so i went to bed early. i finished my editing work that ive been stressing through the last coupla days. here is the before. and here is the after got to pick up 8extry hours today. thats ggoood for the paycheck. bought a case for my hp565 today. so i can carry it on my belt like a big dumb dork at work. got my health insurance all figgered out the other day. ill be back on HPR for free soon.

july 15th
worked all day taking trees out of a new mailer. tired. dont feel to well. got an email form a guy i sold an apple poster for $50 to. he didnt want it, "holes and bent corners" then 13mins i got another email saying that he did still want it. its one he has listed under his "super rare product posters" section people were trying to get me to ebay it or get more money. but its a freakin poster. y'know? s'alright, $50 for a poster ive had on my wall for 5yrs that someneon gave me is alright.

july 14th
**KARA**(& dan) are in town sorta, but i wont be able to see them. dan is moving this server to a new colo. today we didnt do too much. recuuperating, went and had togos and took care of a baby shower present for something stephs going to. last night i ended up getting volunteered to fix someones computer but it was alright, woke up early to do that. she had 2 virus's and i put some more ram in. got her all fixed up and saved her $65/hr. 2hr min.

july 13th
we went to japanese food and a movie last night, a real date and i was able to use the bathroom. im just baout cured. now i can go everywhere, steph cured me. after the dinner we went to see a movie, "the road to perdition" it was great. havent been to the movies in awhile an d this was a good experience. no rowdy teens. except 2, but they shut up evenetually. didnt do much today. went to a BBQ, a thank you kinda for a wedding we went to a while back. that was ok i guess, we ended up leaving aroun 9p then went to another persons house and had desert, it wassteph's parents 30th anniv party thing. didnt get home till 1a.

july 12th
went to jobsite again today, was at work for 30 freakin minutes before i had to turn around and go right back to santa rosa. suck, but then i got reimbursed (.365 cents/mile) so i have money to go on a date tonight.

july 11th
i dont think i did anythign of note today, dentist appt, got prescription toothpaste yippee! my dental hygeniest was preggo, 7mos so and i didnt even notice till she told me she was gonna be out on maternity leave.... a wedding we were supposed to goto in august got canceled. we are going on vacay towards the end of august, before school to tahoe to steph's cousin's cabin.

july 10th
went to jobsite this morning, coupla of super minor issues. the jobsite is the santa rosa golf and country club, its this little golf course nestled in the middle of the boondocks, santa rosa. all the cars were super expensive ones.

july 9th
its hot. i bought shorts. we went drawing at the mall last night.

july 8th
logs are back to working. i notice readership has been declining every day this month so far. so ive updated on all of july. bought a rushdie book the other day at b&n. been reading that. "the ground beneath her feet" warezed up a bunch of ebooks on friday but had most of them read by midday saturday.

july 7th
i wanted to do nothing this weekend, steph said we could do nothing this weekend and boy did that come true. i slept till 3pm on saturday while she was out running errands she figured i was gonna wake up on my own... but in most cases i only wake up every day cause someone makes me, whether its someone calling witha computer problem an alarm or a awake GF looking me in the face saying IM AWAKE in her awake voice. steph finally saw run lola run

july 6th
steph and i were sitting on the couch minutes ago readinng. i looked up and started watching her and realized how happy she made me. then i started crying. i dont know that ive ever cried out of happiness. i lover her so much and she makes me so happy that im unable to escape my emotions like i am accustomed to doing. in fact, this is the first time i have ever cried in front of steph and the first time in a long time that i have cried. oh well, i turned my laptop on to rip a cd and ended up here. such is the life of a blogger?

july 1st-july 5th
been driving all the miles recently going to davis/vaca/sacremento. put over a 1000 miles on my car im sick of driving. this next week im just staying home. sacramento can suck my ass. we waited around for 3hrs for fireworks. eventually we just went home. we saw on the news that s-town started the fireworks at 11:58/midnightish. fucking pricks.

june 30th
we woke up today early (for us, on a sunday) and got around to goto the opera. the drive to the city was quick and uneventful the only problem early on in the day was the people-traffic. the gayday pride parade was in the same block as the opera house (market/8th) so we had to go directly throuhg it to get to our destination. EVERYONE drove. there was no parking, anywhere. so we were in the outlying block trying to find anyplace to park with no luck... eventually we found a nice little $10/day lot very close to eh opera house. weird luck that.we hustled off to our show and it was pretty warm for a city day. turn out tickets in, and go up 4 flights of stairs to our seats (in a jacket and long sleeves) we were in the topper-most balcony and hot and nasty by the time we were seated. the tickets we had were not side-by-side but up and down! so one of us was supposed to sit behind the other, big suck. luckliy the persons in the adjacent seats were sold tickets in the same fashion and they were more than happy to trade so we could sit next to our respective partners. opera is very boring. boring boring and slow. nothing but old people at the opera and a sparse few under 60. and boy old ladies are sure rude. you'd think the closer you were to death's door the more tact you'd have etc. not for these old biddies. anyway im not gonna go into that. steph was ready to go after the first or 2nd act. they kept having long (25min) intermissions after every act.) by this point i have a massive headaceh and i relaly gotta use the potty (and if you know me you know what that means) so at the end of the 2nd to last act they lowere the house lights (as they had been doing right before intermission) so i get up and bolt for hte door so i get to the bathroom first... well im out clicking around in my shoes when i notice noone is following me, so i get tot the bathrrom, do my thing and return to my floor. and it wasnt a real intermission! i had just wlkaed out of an opera! a big nono. so i snuck back in and caught the rest of it which i could have missed all the same. afterwards we met up with steph's parents and cousins and had dinner in north beach. i was really overheated by this point and felt "wrong" more than likely because i was dehydrated. eventually we ended up back in vacaville . and it was just as hot if not hotter there. 103f it peaked that day... after fussing around her parents house for a bit we headed off to the latest house that stpeh is housesitting and finally got settled down. then stpeh deided she wanted to go visit with her cousins more. i stayed behind and cooled down and washed clothes and excercised. ugh. wen tto bed late, early waking up tommorrow.

june 29th
ok. i hate the mall. you all know that. i hate sopping and i hate people, put them together and you got a mall.so we were in pursuit of a blazer thing for me. well it turns out that just a blazer + slacks and a nice shirt arent good enough for hte opera. so i bought a suit. after spending time getting everythign right and hanging around the mall for it to get altered etc we go back to pick up the suit. i had bought a new shirt at macy's aso we laid it out with the suit to make sure hte colors worked and to get a correct tie + pocket silk. well stpeh notices on the sleeve there is a 1/2" slit. while they were pressing hte coat they cut their own merchandise! so we had to turn around and go through the whole process again, but this time we had to wait a lot longer because the waist had to be taken in a bit. so after we get back to pick up the suit (about 1.5-2hrs~ later) i try it on and immediately notice that hte pants are plain, not cuffed like i had asked for. so they have to get sent back to be altered yet again. it took 3 or 4+ hrs to get this suit. by the time we got back home we were exhausted. tomorrow is the opera.

june 28th
friday. work. i started a new mailer today. i shake my fist at rgb>cmyk conversion color fuck-up-edness. went over to stephs, had a lot on my mind to talk about. we worked it out. but unfortunately i still have to goto the opera on sunday. none of her friends can make it. gay-day in the city on opera day. opera and gay day on the same day. coincedence? I THINK NOT. so i have to pick up a post coat thing or im going to be under dressed.rented bladerunner. they didnt have scarface or 2001:ASO.

june 27th
so steph didnt get me clearance to be in the class so she just took the photos herself. i was at the house asleep when the housecleaning lady came. that was lame. so anyway i got my shit, her shit and straightened the place up and got the fuck out. i left stpehs house keys there though so we had to go back. that kinda sucked. stephs cousins from colorado came (they are adult cousins) were visiting. her whole family is catholic so they are going on and on abou thte whole banning of the "under god" thing which i support. and they are callign this guy a commie and just giving him shit and whatever and i have to bite my tongue cause im a guest etc. it really fucking sucked though. the whole point is seperation of church and state, and how this little girl is a minority (thereby she is now the class smelly or fatty) so i feel unsafe in voicing my opinion cause im the minority in this discussion. so that just further proves my point. if the catholics were the majority and it was one nation under kali would they be trying to get that changed? you betcha. such fucking bullshit. then the poor guy is getting death threats 'n shit and they said something stupid like he deserves it or whatever and i rolled my eyes and said something like "violence in the name of god thats original..." fucking zealots.i swear if im ever in a court setting where i need to do the whole hand on bible thing im going to flip out. oh and on tv they were showing all the congressmen unsupporting the 9th appelate and they are all these oldfathite southerners. bible thumpers. we need the jesus in the schools. little kids that love the jesus dont believe in violencing on their feller classmates. bullshit. does anyone remember the crusades? the inquisition? ww2? this whole youre-not-one-of-us-youre-one-of-them war we're fighting right now? ugh. go smite yourself god-bitches.
     on an unrelated note, i actually made a stencil of my face and cut it out and shit to show steph and it came out pretty cool when applied to canvas. dont know if the kids are going to have as much patience though... i barely did.

june 26th
work. tore part of my office apart looking for a cd that i realized leater i had never owned. i had images form one project hinking it was another. ai yi yii. went over to davis. gonna do the HS summer school stencil photo thing tommorrow for steph.

june 25th
didnt do much all day. then went and met turok in san rafael and we saw minority report. i still dont know what i make of it. it seemed kinda let downish but at the same time had pretty cool moments. im gonna have to see it again. we went to chili's i hadnt been there in so long i didnt realize it was a mexican denny's

june 24th
my watch tells me its the 24th. ive been timing everything. i went to the bathroom for 6 minutes and 9 minutes. it took 24minutes for my boss's palm to sync it took 1hr and 25mins to get to workular area. now i can be neurotic to crazy time tempo! im printing right now. parts got ordered today for a system. i got the 120gb back from newegg for another comput0. i got a bookshelf in my office today. it is black. i put my books and manuals on it. tonight we go draw tommorrow im goign to go see turok i think

june 23rd
this house is nice. all the street names are named after artists. this particular house is on bonnard street. my trusty fossil watch finally gave up the ghost hte other day. sara had given it to me a very long time ago. basically the battery is dead. the problem is if you get the battery replaced, it breaks the watches seal and is no longer waterproof. so id have to be really carefulo with it. so i took a look at new watches. the salesdude at macy's was pretty inexperienced. he helped me out big time though. finallly settled ont he watch i wanted when i saw these new phillip starke watches. i wanted to check it out as a whim but thye didnt have hte key to get into the display case (there was only one copy and htis saleslady had taken it) so that got all the watch poepl in a tizzy. in the end the watch i bought was supposed to be $113 after taxes but i got it for $61 after taxes. it was in the wrong display portion and for my inconvenience. in the end the salesdude just hooked me up :) i made sure he wasnt gonna get in trouble though. steph used to work retail and she said that kinda thing happened all the time. i filled out a customer response thingee for him. steph is gonna cook dinner soon. some greek chicken or something. but ill have to goto bed soon cause ive got to drive from davis to work tommorrow (meaning ill have to wake up very early)

june 22nd
still workign on piece. steph went to her friends grad party in sac-twon but i wanted to stay at the house. therefore i ended up witha honey-dew list. so sometime around 3pm i was walking into the bedroom and i saw the envelope with our tickets to phantom in it. i looked at the tickets and noticed the date on them was tonight, not tommorrow night like everyone else thought. so long story short. after a bunch of frantic phone calls steph and i ended up goign to phantom, while her parents did not get to go. i guess its kinda good they didnt go because a Very Large Man sat in the seat next to mine. since steph and i had 4 seats to ourselves it was ok, we just moved one seat down. however had i needed to sit in the seat her mom had purchased it would have sucked. i know some people are agaisnt the new southwestern airlines fatty profiling, but damn. this fucking fat ass took up not just his seat, oh no. one of his rolls used up the mutual arm rest, then his fatbody extended another 6inches into the next seating range. if _i_ had to sit like that through a flight id be livid. so. about phantom:

let me preface this with a little p3disclaimer. ive never really been to a play or a musical. having said that here is my one sentence review: even though i know it was in english those fucking mushmouths need to learn a bit of anunciacion. i couldnt understand most of the play. it was sad really. sad and frustrating. they were singing over one another and when they talked it was really unintelligible. i was very pissed off. i still dont know a lot of what happened. in the end the main lady gives the phantom back a ring. so hereis a little snippet of p3experience.

me: what did she just give him?
steph: the ring...
me: what ring?
steph: the ring he gave her.
(after the curtain fell)
me: when did he give her a ring?
steph: i think it was when they were doing the play thing...
a lot of it was like that. or the whole big ass audience would laugh and id have to lean over and ask steph what did he/she say? and stpeh would go i dunno. oh well. i told steph id give musical/plays one more chance.

more about fatty: sitting 2 seats over i could hear him loudly breathing thoruhgout the entire play. however he was very polite. he also let steph and i borrow his binoculars several times.

june 21st
today steph and i are housesitting a nice house in davis. its prety freakin big. nice too. did i mention nice? worked today, got out of work 40mins late. then took forever to drive to davis. on the way there was a sedan vs. big tree accident. the car was only half a car now. moments later a camaro came racing along. traffic was doing 80. he was moving as if we were all standing still. 120mph? 130mph? v. fast. so the impact of the accident had no impact on him. but perhaps he will impact his car into a tree. we had good sushi today. the plate i ordered had no unagi, but our server asked the master sushi man and he gave me some unagi. started a new pshop piece. will upload once i am done.

june 20th
i had nowhere to be today, and nothing to do. i finally got paid for the rest of the server. that means i have a big ol pit of money for a vacation. or soemthing. this weekend steph and i are playing house in davis again, sunday we are going to see the phantom of the opera in sac-town. the status is that rob levin should get a life. priced out another system today. got that approved.shawn and i went to denny's and tdrew last night. then we watched the man who wasnt there. i got speakers the other day for $5. im not really sure right now where im goign with this. i just got done watching the mothman prohpecies with my family. neensy is here because she is getting her wisdom teeth pulled tommorrow morning.

june 19th
here. read this. its 9.34am and my desk isnt here yet. hi. again. i want to goto japan. steph wants to goto new york. shawn, this one's for you babby my desk is here. here is a snapshot of one of myold webpages. my new desk got here!

june 18th
i might have over reacted a bit. woek up early to goto a consultanty job. after that decided to dye hair. so i bleached it all then put in red stripes around the bangs... here are pics. the last 3. so anyway back to the overreacting. my tooth xray came out just fine. no abcess, they ground down one of the points on my first molar apparently all of my left side was coming down on one point. casuing a bruised toothular area resulting in me being in pain since may. i watched monsters ball tonight. kinda put me down a little. so ive been looking at diff sites for design inspiration. i like the way this one and this one have a hand worked feel. i like minimalism in design. and i can appreciate new fangled widgets, but im not into this look how "futuristic i can be" thing. anyway. i get to play with my new desk tommorrow. but then after work i have to goto boss's new gf's house to "fix her internet" but its cool i guess. boss does stuff for me more than he has to. picked up a new client today i think too. thats good. the way they explain it, they have as much work for me as i can do.and i charge a lot. with design and this site i want the focus to be a portfolio i guess. i have a lot more content than many of the people who are doing their thing. ive got photos galore and art pieces galore. ive got 1year+ of blog content. i just need to hone the design so the focus is on the art. youll notice i href to this, instead of this

june 17th
last ngiht when i was fitfully trying to sleep i came up with something. ive been having pretty bad luck lately sprinkled with good luck. normally its just 100% good luck. i think i know how to fix it too. remember those gyros i didnt pay for? i think i got cursed. that dude was greek, greek is kinda like gypsy so maybe, its a longshot. or just karma. either way im gonna go give that guy money on wednesday.

bad luck list:
headaches every other day, som last for several days
19" monitor died
possibly being served/sued
lost health insurance
hdd DOA on new computer (120gb 7200rpm)
uh... i was able to come up wth more things last night.
i think i have an abcess in one of my molars... i was supposed to get some cavity work fixed around finals time, then i never got it taken care of, ive just been eating on the other side of my mouth. well today it hurt to eat on the opposite side of my mouth so i finally called.

good luck list.
$$ from returned dead monitor bought me a 32" tv
finally got gallery software...working
health insurance not actually canceled, just broker change

ok so things arent all that bad. ive been feeling not quite right though.
found my slides from AP art in HS. some drawings some sculpture


june 16th
finally got new gallery software working today. took a lot of fucking effort hopefully it will be worth it. you can add comments and stuff. evverthing is nested. got a letter yesterday stating that im losing my health insurance. dont knwo why...

june 15th
leah's wedding today, forgot my didgicam. didnt get drunk, the dancing wasnt too cool. it wasnt that great :/ steph and i ended up goign over to brent's and drinking midori sour's.

june 14th
so freakin' busy at work. spent a good deal of time fucking with "imp" today. i gave up one of my benches the other day so brent could have a table. ive needed adesk for awhile. well went to advent today, got a 6' desk with raised pedastal the entire length of the desk for my other monitor. i can get all my equipment on it! also, i got this keyboard tray! its pretty expensive but its nice. busy busy busy today. so shawn got his shit together so now i need to get my shit together to get my site all nice. stephs coming over and my dad just brought me a happy friday beer. 'rents are gone for the weekend and i ot free alcohol at leah's wedding tommorrow. this sucky week is looking up :)

june 13th
so. lawyers are whores. blanket statement. what a mother fucking litigious society. do you make your money by suing people? are you worth keeping alive? that brand new 120gb was D.O.A. upon power up. fuck wd their QA is really going down the shitter. rented mulholland dr. last night. took 4 hrs or so to watch it. disgusting bleed of technology. i turned off my laptop and computer. so then ig got called half a dozent imes. or email bounced to cell phone. ill have to watch it again. i believe i caught the revolving nature. i believe i caught the overtones of false vs. real and live vs. memorex. betty vs. diane. i just missed the signifigance of the blue haired "silencio" lady.

june 12th
still have that headache. i hate you all. supposed to finish that build otday, went to stephs instead. had fish. i only get fish at her house.

june 11th
shawn and i went down to the city today. saw the chegoya show at a gallery drew in the signy booky hting. enrique is goign all minimalist. using acrylic gel that looks like candied encaustic. went to toher shows. the general consensus was crap. followed by more crap. had more fun looking at graf pieces on the sides of buildings then seeing the shitty old-lady art. shawn reg'd the sister site wholewheattoast.com i have 2 more i am going to register. yep. built a killer system today, abit it7, p4 1.7 512mb ddr, 120gb wd 7200 hdd, 24x sony cdr/w, zip, gf2, 56k... less than $1k with a tft flat panel.

june 10th
worky worky hung out with the guys for a little bit. mostly just played around with new tv. i wen through all of my old video game systems trying to see what still spu up or not (i have 50+ psx "backups") 5 of 'em or so no longer work. im gonna give the rest to my little cousin i guess. My n64 i should prolly hold onto as there is much more money in that. though i havent played it ina long ass time. went over to pick up shawn to go drawing but he was otherwise occupied so he flaked on me, suck but oh well.

june 9th
steph left early :( i scrounged up the receipt for my monitor then took it back to costco. i had bought it in january of 00, they gave me my full money back in cash. so i went and bought a 32" jvc tv :)) the plan is, buy tv, then use 15" monitor or buy a used one off of adam the next time he gets some in. using component video from dvd player is sweet. watched 13 ghosts. lame movie but it was impressive to see on the tv home theatre

june 8th
today i had to wake up early. i had forgotten to goto sleep last night so i only got 4 or 5 hrs. then we went to toni's for a bbq (shes my aunt) ended up napping on her couch and watching tv and being generally bored. later on i had a surprise bday to goto for a coworker. that was pretty cool, the host was a gourmet chef so all the foood was rockin' id never had baked brie before. i got a massive headache though. i think ive been coming down with something.

june 7th
went and hung out with adam and mike after work, finally got my laptop back today so i was able to start getting shit done again. got home nad found out my 19" monitor was dead, suck :(

jun 6th
31337 h4x0r kellise just taught me somtehing. goto your grade page @ SSU for the current semester (grades arent posted yet) it will tell you that grades arent up yet. copy hte url, close all browsers, then open a browser and paste that url and youll have your grades early! go leeet hacksor. im getting ready to do soemthing. i feel stagnant. i have skills but i feel like im spinning my wheels. other people my age are very successful and i need to start working on something worthwhile. then i can move to canada. 7million guns, 10million homes 200 murders

jun 5th
took stephs car to the nmechanic early this morning but htey were closed. i went to work and she took it back. turns out it was just her battery, the alternator was outputting a bit weak . mechanic wanteed $169 to replace the battery (that included the previous $75 for diag's, the battery and labour for installing battery) so i said hell no, ill do it. well i said that cause batteries are usually $50-60 so we go to buy the damn battery at kragen (its at the end of my street) and the battery ended up costing $120 pre-tax fucking rip off. i checked the receipt to see if the dude had deliberately jacked us, but nah :( installed that then we showered and went to the market.

jun 4th
i did jackshit today. went and paid someone else to sweat and wash my car. went to the bank, other than that, just festered.steph was coming over 'cause she has to teach in rohnert park tommorrow morning. she hadnt even got out of vacaville, stopped to get coffee, got back out and her car wouldnt start... a family friend came and gave her a jump and told her it was prolly corrosion. she got to my house and icleaned the posts in the dark, jumped it and checked it out. i thought it was alternator and possibly battery. cant do much else tonight

jun 3rd
my laptop is still being repaired again so i was more or less tooless at work. i had a DR appt today to check to see if a weird mole was cancerous or whatever, it wasnt, just an abnormal pustule+mole thing. tasty eh? shawn and i went drawing at borders for awhile then we watched training day, it was pretty good. nothing much exciting. shawns getting on my ass for lack of updates. so i guess ill have to scan a bunch of sketchbook pages and take pics of all the recent paintings.

june 2nd
steph is redecorating and painting her bathroom so we went out and looked at stuff. and i whined real hard and i got to go play video games. i wasnt whining hard enough and we were near some little 3yr old that was whining good so i just pointed at him to replicate my feelings. monday night drawing eh.

june 1st
went hunting for a pair of real sunglasses, ended up with sunglasses and a wedding present or 3 for leah's wedding. we just happened to be in the store when i just happeend to remember that she was registered there. i accidently misplaced her wedding invitation with all that stuff written in it so ill have to figure it out. i know its on the 13 or 14th or 15th of june though

may 31st
went to work, normal stuff. went to steph's and i got rhubarb strawberry pie, it wasnt homemade but it was still good 'nuff.

may 30th
chris and mike and i went and saw star wars. on a digital screening. freakin awesome. couldnt believe it. we all ditched our gf's so steph and i will be coming back to see it again. but gee dang it was cool. and then yoda bust's out and we all woohoo'd

may 29th
worked. not sure what happened today, nothing too important. hung out with "the guys" saw most of my friends today. that was good.

may 28th
got jedi 2 outcast this weekend but i couldnt play it cause steph was here. ended up staying up till 5am this morning playing it. no work today. la la la was gonna buy a gamecube but i think im gonna hold off for a while.

may 27th
woke up, neither of us had hangovers. soon after wakign up got invited to a 4th grad party, i got invited to that party 4 times throughout hte day. so before we went to the hotel party we went to jen's grad party. it was cool steph got to see some of her friends form college. awesome food there. then we came back home and chilled ofr an hour or t2, then went over to shawn's house AKA humboldt hotel for a party. hotel parties used to rock. they were just the ultimate parties. but that changed. now its people we dont know and just not the same vibe. we (chris/janay, adam/kendra, me/steph and shawn) ended up leaving about hte same time. shawn came back over to my house and we watched a movie.

may 26th
hoooo-boy drank _a lot_ of rum. both steph and i got pretty drunk, neensy ended up having to drive us home. played some fun drinking games. kevin is a h00t drunk. though he drank a bunch of fishsauce and we didnt even bet him any money to do it :/ that shit smells awful. his roomate is cambodian or vietnamian or some shit which explains why it was in his apt in the first place.

may 25th
went and got a haircut, a present for neensy as well. i fucking hate my haircutty place. "cesar" made me look like i was from some eastern bloc country. went to kendra's family's graduation party (she actually got to graduate from ssu) later on kevin is having another party for kendra's grad only this one will be more drinking and less family.

may 24th
w00t 4day weekend. there is a bug in on of our templates. it means every rfi/rfp is off by several dollars. each project has a hundred or so rfi's and there are a lot of projects. i cant confirm when it actually started fucking up but it look ls like it was in march. i put a frantic call in to the software house that built hte fmpro db/template cause i checked it and all the fields were correctly specified. steph is coming here for no work goodness went and picked and tried to pick up a present for neensy, her bday was ont eh 23rd.

may 23rd
work work work. upgraded a firend/coworker to w2k. hes happy now. had an interesting sitch with his nic's mac addy, the pci bus address and my dhcp server. it kept DHCP OFFER (ing) him an ip, but the nic kept rejecting it and popping offline every few seconds. i ended up just swapping pci slots, removing one video adapter and it worked (this is a p2 oc 420) i figgered at first it was just cause it was oc'd but nup. first day of vacay!

may 22nd
went to school @ 10am to finish studying. 45mins later shawn and i were bored. we ended up hanging out on campus till 5pm just killing time. drew at the coffee shop, drew this at the coffee shop. added it and another drawing to the doodles section. as always, the doodley updates are at the bottom.

may 21st
finished cleaning studio, brought all my shit home. i left my cam at stephs house last weekend so ill have to wait till next weekend to photog. been studying hard for test in american.

may 20th
left work early, went and cleaned out studio. ill bring home paintings tommorrow and i can photograph that newest one. built another massive study guide thing. this one is 24pgs so far. not like pure text, just pictures with titles. she floods us so with images for knowing. its kinda harsh compared to what i and others are used to.

may 19th
uh huh. ok woke up to dog barking. we cleaned up and got out of davis. a bad 5car or so wreck made a 15min drive an hour+. i didnt study much at all for arth test on wed. i just cant get into it.

may 18th
ok the house is an art lovers dream. every book you can imagine on the discussion of art theory is here. every where a book could fit there is one. ive been reading a little bit of "2000 years of wall writing: graffitti" by robert reisner. its prety interesting discussion of some of the reasons shawn and i seem to be well, writing on the walls, though as obvious as they may be it only struck me as such after i read this authors theories in part. some of the identity issues he was tlkaing about do reflect his 1971 viewpoint.. ooh saw spiderman today. we were wandering around downtown davis and just came upon a cineplex. neat-o.

may 17th
went to jobsite then to work. printed stuff and did other stuff, nothing too memorable. went over to steph's after work. we are babysitting a house in davis for the weekend.

may 16th
crit. the painting went over well. though surprisingly noone knew what pedantic meant. (it says pedantic bragger) in the bubblet. i think ive found the style i like. though now im through with painting for along while. i ahve one last painting i want to do, but as i see it right now. thats it. hopefully what ive been doing on canvas will translate to copper ok.

may 15th
last art history class woohoo! early american art history is so dry. im much more of a 1900-now kinda guy. talked to arth teacher after calss. i guess she doesnt hate us after all. antagonism.

may 14th
painting. im making progress. itll be done soon well, it has to be done soon, by thurs.

may 13th
work. got to get paid to drive. love that. i have instituted a drastic savings plan cause im spending too much money. went to school and painted. didnt have cam on me so cant take picutres. im afraid this one is gonna be pretty lame anyway. nat is getting married in august, leah is getting married in june. i still live at home. i play AD+D in my parents basement while eating cheez-wiz from the can. i like ham radio, star trek and no wait i hate those things.

may 12th
dad made a huge breaky for us/mom. ate then went back to sleep for along while. steph had to leave so i could get work done. completely vented client comput0. dremel'd it all wide and breezy.

may 11th
ran errands, picked up mom something for mom's day. setph and i woke up early and still ended up with a late start. just kinda mellow day. lindsay came home today. dada and her are goign to a "friends of the NRA meeting tonight" picked up a client computer.

may 3rd-10th
got in a crash, rearended a lady, not to damagey. taking etching next semester. ive started a new painting or two. shawn sold some work, we went to the city and saw a show at the so expo. some other stuff has happened. got mailer finished. nothing to interesting or htat i care to recall. i need to do something with this now.

may 2nd
you may now be envious. i bought one of these bad boys fuck-ing awe-some. didnt get either work into the juried show. shawn got a huge major art-break but i wont spill right now.

may 1st
went to work, had a pretty rad day, installated the new 30gb dell sent me. other stuff, turned in second piecce to juried show, turned in paper to arth. class was canceled. and we got to give evaluations. we tried to be non-harsh but productive. she really needs more experience.

april 30th
no lynching as of yet, kurt even said hi and he dont normally do that. and i didnt get busted
[19:16] inklady69: oooooooh you got busted!!!
[19:16] inklady69: (schooL)
[19:18] *** inklady69 signed off at Tue Apr 30 19:18:05 2002.
[19:23] PH3RR3TISE: nuh-uh
check it

april 29th
im'a'gon' git lynched tommorry. i guess kurt has arranged a shawnanderic talkign to. the jist of it we get form will smith a diff teacher is that we are not playing fair. and not helping the community and being too isolationist. we'll see tommorrow. now i write that paper. shawn got a flier for a show that we can collaborate on when he dropped off his soex piece

april 28th
typical sunday. i didnt write the paper i was supposed to write today. i left my wallet in steph's purse so i had to drive to vacaville and back to get it. the drive was pleasant though so it really wasnt a big problem.